More about MAHB Induction 01/2012

The Team upon arrival at Nur Laman Bistari, Ulu Yam on 12th Feb 2012

Shinaas - Shahirah, Husaini, Izwan, Nadiah, Arken, Aizam, Sharmeela

With the boys - Husaini je not in the pic

With the girls :)

Very sad as I was unable to follow them masuk hutan :(. I had my athma attack along the way up and had to go down..the team was the best as they were willing to help wherever and whenever they could but I just coudlnt find it inside me to bother anyone of them. Even so...I had the honor to lepak with the facis and hear lots of stories from their side..some sad, some inspiring :)

One of them brought my handphone all the way up and managed to take some pictures..Very2 grateful :)

One of the games we played- Monitor Ku Sayang

The fasilitators were so so good..they've managed these inductions since day 1 the management decided to do it. But the participants were the best too! After the event I had a talk with one of the managers who also was a participant in this induction..she said that she was very surprised to find out that all of us had very2 good personalities and were very2 supportive and were very willing to carry out anything and everything thrown to us. Everyone was very willing to help each other out and I do hope that this culture can be translated and incultivated during work times too..amin :)

No doubt that I am feeling better about work..but there is something I cant get out of my mind and wish to share here..

There was one session which we had to share stories within the team. One of us, a young guy..told us his. The parents was always bz with work and he and the siblings often had someone else to take care of them. I feel him. I've always felt that. Since a kid, I've always told myself that one day when I myself have kids, I would not let anyone else to take care of my own kids, no matter how hard. The effect of someone else taking care of you instead of your own parents..is sometimes not a positive one :). Kids needs the love of their parents the most.

However, when I was pregnant with my first child..I was pressured with having less funds. I got a job.
The job pays well but I lost it when I gave birth (biasala..contract). My parents..they are and were working parents. They wanted me to work too and to fully utilise my degree.

At first, hubby rejected the idea..he wanted me to stay home and take care of the kids. I too wanted the same. But being pressured, I got a job. The thing about me is, throw me anywhere..I will find ways and means to do the job well. I can work, although I hate it much. Months and years goes by and now I am so used to getting my pay everymonth and my family are getting free medical benefits. Medical now are so very2 expensive :(

And now, when I proposed to hubby that I wanted to stop work to focus on the kids..he is reluctant to say yes. Mostly because, our commitments are too much for him to handle alone..

But remembering they guy's stories and how he tells it..I badly feel the need to stay at home..work from home..or work where the kids can always follow.

So this weekend I'd been thinking a lot.

On another view, without his parents really focusing on him..he kinda turns out well..I think. When he was growing up, he decided to take up hafiz and alim course. Good rite? And he is excellent at socializing..the only bad thing is that he has some grudge with the parents.

Ok, I know grudge is bad. I used to have them too. But with knowledge and experience..we slowly learn to let them go. If our parents who had sacrificed to much for us can always forgive us, why cant we rite? Anyway, syurga kan dibawah tapak kaki ibu..

Hmm..ape yg aku nak cakapkan ni? ahahahaha..tah..aku pun x sure..
Tapi cita2 aku ialah untuk besarkan adam dan erfaan sendiri, tanpa membebankan encik suami..harap2nye dlm masa terdekat Allah bagi rezeki dan petunjuk untuk aku realisasikan impian ni..

Dari kecik, selain nak bukak bisnes sendiri, aku takde impian lain..hanya untuk jadi the best daughter, wife, mom, sister and friend.

Ya Allah..bantulah kami..Amin :)


p/s Thank you encik ** for reminding of what I had really wanted :)