Artis : BOB AF2
Lagu : Cinta Seorang Teman
MAESTRO:

Dulu engkau kukenali
Tak pernahpun sedar
Dari mata yang memandang
Penuh pengertian

Tapi saat itu telah berubah
Dipersimpangan usia
Antara kita tak mampu lagi
Berselindung dengan alasan

Telah kucantumkan semua
Impan bersama
Dalam jalinan yang kita bina berdua

Namun apakah erti bila
Keinginan terlanjur
Lalu menganggu kala dirimu selalu
Agar disini

Korus:
Duhai teman bisakah kau fahami
Sandiwara ini
Sejak bila berputiknya cinta kita
Menjadi rahsia yang tersimpan
Mengujudkan kenyataan
Tak sanggup kehilangan mu
Ohh..Telah ku cantumkan impian bersama
Dalam jalinan yang kita bina berdua
Namun apakah erti bila keinginan telah terlanjur
Lalu menganggu sanubariku
Uuhh..yeahh

Bridge:
Kucubakan bayangkan waktu dulu
Gurau senda serta pujukkan mu
Puisi indah yang nyatakan
Kata dirnduku
Masa yang berlalu meragui
Seluruh harapanku kini
Mengapakah bertanya dimana kesudahan kita

Korus:
Duhai teman bisakah kau fahami
Sandiwara ini
Sejak bila berputiknya cinta kita
Menjadi rahsia yang tersimpan
Mengujudkan kenyataan
Ku tak sanggup kehilanganmu

p/s this song is for one of my best fren yg sgt feeling dgr lagu ni..haha

destinasi..

Destinasi cinta

Menyingkap tirai hati

Mengintai keampunan

Di halaman subur rahmat-Mu, Tuhan

Tiap jejak nan bertapak

Debu kejahilan

Akan ku jirus dengan madu keimanan

Tak ternilai airmata dengan permata

Yang bisa memadamkan api neraka

Andai benar mengalir dari nasuha nurani

Tak kan berpaling pada palsu duniawi

Destinasi cinta yang ku cari

Sebenarnya terlalu hampir

Hanya kabur kerana dosa di dalam hati

Telah ku redah daerah cinta

Yang lahir dari wadah yang alpa

Tiada tenang ku temui

Hanya kecewa menyelubungi

C/O

Ku gelintar segenap maya

Dambakan sebutir hakikat

Untuk ku semai menjadi sepohon makrifat

Moga dapat ku berteduh di rendang kasih-Mu

Namun ranjaunya tidak akan sunyi

Selagi denyut nadi belum berhenti

Durjana syaitan kan cuba menodai

Segumpal darah bernama hati(Destinasi cinta Ilahi)

Lestarikan wadi kalbuku, oh Tuhanku

Leraikan aku dari pautan nafsu

Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redha-Mu

Namun masihku mengharap ampunan-Mu

Wahai Tuhanku… Ya Allah…

hehe..lagu ni amek dr website zaim..thanx zaim! nak denga lagu ni sile gi website die eh? nad skang malas nak letak mp3 kat blog..tggu la bebile rajin.

skang me n yeh dah back to normal (better i shd say :D)..and just when things r getting better, abg ipar yeh dpt laptop baru n yeh n his bro dah x dpt online cam slalu..yela takkan nak donlod ym dlm laptop abg ipar die plak kan? haiseh..

n then lps raye die nak masuk blaja..once dah masuk no pc n no handphone..huiyyo..kejam..

takot sgt sebenanye .. tp well, trust n doa have to be there always ..moge2 Allah izinkan kitorang hingge ujung nyawe :D.. ~amin

p/s korang tlg aminkan la jugak ek? tengkiyu!! :D

little things..big things..

okie things are not going well lately specially with my dearest yeh..
seems since the day he board the plane to uk we've been having miscommunications..i guess i was at fault, but things get confusing when each of us felt we are at fault..and both are scared of losing each other..i dunno..

been calling him 2 times since last nite..which he..doesnt respond well..and..been smsing a lot..which he would be replying 1 or 2..
sigh..dunt know wuts epening 2 us..

yeah i know there are ups n downs in a relationship..and i hope our situation rite now wouldnt be the end of us..gees..so i am that scared of losing him..wow..

*sad mode..n hoping things would get back to normal..and wondering whther i can turn back time?..huhu

wish list currently:
1. have money n permission to go meet him in uk even for a while..
2. be able to continue taking masters in uk with him
3. find a place for my industrial training
4. i want to pass all my subjects this sem without letting my cgpa go down..

crazy wish list huh? but this is what i want.. :(
plz plz plz..haish..

sad 12/10

okie..so yeh is going away to uk on 12/10..and i'm not ok coz i know i'll be missing him lots..

hehe ppl..sowie lame x apdet! aa ni ha nak apdet neh :P

first of all this is one of my fav conversations with aisyah hehe:

nad : tah..kadang cam pk..its not worth to care..
nad : kan?
i-syah: yup
i-syah: its not worth to care for ppl yg tak appreciate kite
nad : yupp
nad : so i just have to apply the 'so-wut' attitude
nad : ignorance is bliss
i-syah: hmm..
i-syah: but sakit hati..
nad : yeah..
nad : but u feel hurt when u think bout it
nad : so..y think when u can just ignore
nad : rite?
i-syah: hmm.. can also
i-syah: but the problem is.. u can juz ignore it like a few sec n it came back to u later
nad : so..ignore it again
nad : until u eat ur heart out
nad : so..its better when u dont have a heart
nad : its better if u dont feel
i-syah: can also la like dat!
i-syah: i need to be a persoon without a heart so dat i cant feel nwthing
nad : yeah
nad : me: a person without a heart n a brain that doesnt function
nad : perfecto!
i-syah: i dont want like dat
i-syah: i want a person without heart but still has a feeling n brain to think ..
i-syah: can aa?
nad : yeah..of coz
nad : feel all u want using ur brain
nad : i think that wld make perfect sense
i-syah: ok.. ill try from today onwards
nad : no u cant
nad : coz u still have a heart
nad : and undeniable that u have a big one
i-syah: no no..it become smaller u know
nad : serious?nad : cant u make it big again?
nad : or do u want me donate mine so that it becomes big again?
nad : i dont mind
nad : not at all
nad : my pleasure!
i-syah: no thanks!!
i-syah: i think small is enough
i-syah: it can grow bigger when the time come
i-syah: so no need to worry
nad : so when it does..it'll be trouble n more trouble
nad : coz definitely it'll coz hurt again
i-syah: hope not nemore!
nad : so how now?
nad : yeah..perfect..when u have a big heart..u can hope!
nad : yey
i-syah: in dat case.. it can be like a ballon,. can grew bigger..then get smaller again.. but sumtime it burst in the air
nad : it burst?

ok..long oredi..after that we went on jadi gile talking bout these things..ehehe
currently life is not beautifull..no way no no

things to get done:
1. read chapter 1-4 for ethics
2. get the doc. prepared by fom latest by monday
3. get hold of any companies that r offering internships..[cyber n putra only plz]
4. print mr sonny's slides
5. go n get back cd from Dr Ali to see which 4 journals he approves of
6. prepare the ind. assignment at least 40% before the meeting with him
7. go n see Dr Ali on wednesday 4.30
8. remember the appointment at Ampang Puteri on Thurs after 2
9. have fun with yeh on sat n sunday..gosh..gonna reaally miss him..
..etc

haha..n siang td..met a friend [who currently makes one kinda face when ur near..as if u smell or sumthing] n haha..had fun forcing her to talk like old times..how did i do that?
by just pretending we were close friends like b4 n just chit chatting with her in front of other friends :D well, at first she was just..hmm ya..umm..owh..yupp thingy n ignoring questions asked by me..but later..haha..she learnt to relax..n treated me 'like' a friend. well..at least its better than b4..i'm just so confused coz i dont know what went wrong between us..huhu

ok..so wut..remember..apply my 'so-wut' attitude!!

.so-wut attitude activated..blogging paused.

wowwieee

And The award goes to...

Tensen makyeh aku nampaknya ni...dahlah lab comp ITD ditutup, komp kat umah pulak, setelah digodek2 oleh adikku Aying yang bijak laksamana Bentan tu, telah tidak dapat dibuka selagi disket window tak dijumpai. Grr...Ari ni memandangkan otak aku tak berapa betul, aku nak senaraikan the first of the first person yg ada kena-mengena dalam hidup aku yang serba memeningkan ini.

The First Person...
Yang buat aku jadik manusia sewel ---> Nadiah Azharuddin aka Nad. Dulu, aku ni cuma manusia biasa jer, tapi sejak aku baik ngan minah ni, otak aku telah dicemari dengan perkataan2 yang tidak diterima oleh Prof. Ungku Aziz mahupun Dewan bahasa dan Pustaka....contohnya 'megabostok' adalah term untuk pembaris patah. 'hati berbintat-bintat' adalah istilah untuk hati yang berdebar2. 'Together-gether saying love words' adalah satu petikan dari lagu Korrie dan Ella yang telah dibahasa-melayukan. Sesungguhnya award untuk minah paling tak btul patut dianugerahkan kepada budak ni. ehehe...

ok..yg diatas dipetik drpd blog sorang minah shy http://teh-segan.blogdrive.com/ hehe sile jgn terpedaye dgn tulisan2 itu..itu sume dusta :P.
kelaka plak tgk pa'ah terkompius dgn kesewelan shy..maafkan die ye pa'ah? die mmg camtu..hehe..

so first week of holidays..xde wat ape..cume lepas je abis xm on the 28th, yeh sampai klia on the 29th. went to fetch him, had a lot of fun..besh sgt. thanx incik..lebiu so much..hehe
then things went back to normal..setiap hari memasak..hari ni sup tulang, esok masak lemak cili api..luse asam pedas..tulat masak kicap..and so on..begitulah rutin harian..masak memasak je la kat rumah selain drpd aktiviti mengemas dan menidurkan diri sendiri..

3rd week tetibe wat decision gile utk join desa it diperlis. best sgt! syg mak, ayah, ezzairil, am, izzati, adik arasy, julia, nana, sofia..isk alahai..windu nye..pastu plak 1 umah die amik 6 org budak2 gile mmu..alhamdulillah umah kitorang anak2 angkatnye sume 1 kapla yg gile..aku (sunshine), aisyah (sharon), nita (kaklong), amy, rai (alaaii) and sis aida. sume comei2 belake..ehehe specially part berendam dlm selut!! rindu tgk sharon ngan alai begaduh sape nak bgn mandi dulu, rindu gelak dgn kaklong sambil makan ikan pekasam bersame nasik, rindu tgk amy tak marah tapi marah, n rindu kepade cameraman aida..ehehe..alahaii..

antare kenangan yg xleh lupe kat perlis mase jadi panel forum bersame2 ngan ct, ryu, Q n zura kat mrsm beseri..forum yg jadi rancangan teletubbies secare2 tibe2 klu si nadiah azharuddin mule pegang mic eheh..pastu yg plg penting ..isk..windu kat yeh la..tetibe je dah kenal plak ngan ucop, safiah ngan tok..ehehe..perlis indera kayangan in memory..banyak sgt cite klu nak tulis :P
gi padang beso gi jln2 je..beli permainan utk adik2..utk diri sendiri cam xde ape nak dibeli..

pastu hari last tu yeh dtg kampung..pagi2 dah jalan2 kat tepi2 sawah..cantik je kampung ujong bukit pagi2..pastu die kasik keychain otromen yg comel..hiks..adesh..

haih..wakey2 cuti2 mesia dah over!! ni ha dah start klas pon pg td. gile aah klas ngan Dr. Ali. kompem takkan dtg lambat aa klas die..ehehe..first day dah gile rase exhausted..we'll see what will come 4 tomrw..takott!!!

denting

List birthdays

1/9 haris harun -- tah mane tah mamat neh
5/9 hawa liyana [dearest cousin]
7/9 munira azman [smka]-- aku rindula kat ko
17/9 salwa jamil [mmu]
23/9 deq no0r [smka]
26/9 FiFi [mmu] -- hot babe tuh..hehe

ramai jugek kawan2 aku yg lahir bln 9 eh?
hmm..skang ni tatau ape jadik..mls btol nak apdet blog neh..
mase bday hawa haritu kitorang gi A&W minum float n waffle with eskrem..hehe missed her..even though die uitm shah alam je..but jarang dpt jumpe..ye la..die dak arki..gile melambak kije..aku plak..tah..byk esemen la jugak..tapi dah die bz aku pon kene wat wat bz gak lah..eheh..
then lps minum tu..i gave a bantal hello kitty as a present..sori hawa..tgh kopak lor..telekom yg baru ni x masuk..sbb abis baya fees aje..ye la..kate amek 7 subjects..huhu..

beberape hari lepas jugaklah tetibe terwat decision utk gi perlis join desa it..sume ni angkara aisyah!! hehe..xdelah..alang2 x dpt gi paris ngan mama..gi perlis pon jadiklah :P so khamis ni ade briefing..n akan bertolak hari jumaat..

pale otak tgh x betul ni..ape2 la yg aku pk..
hmm.. :) x baik kan asik pk pasal org? hehe..terbace kat mane tah ye doa ni 'Ya Allah, kurniakanlah aku cinta org yg benar2 mencintaimu...' :) tapi tu la..layak ke aku ni..nadiah bt azharuddin mendapat org sebagus itu sedangkan diri aku pun tak tereducated secukupnye ttg ilmu islam? well..okie..sebenanrnye sepanjang 5 thn kat smka ustaz ustazah dah banyak kasi input..tapi banyak yg dah terlupe sbb aku x banyak berfikir utk kaitkan diri sendiri dgn agama..sbb aku takut, aku dah banyak wat dose..n takut dgn kemungkinan kat akhirat nnti..

tapi aku pasti..Allah itu Maha pengasih, Maha Adil, Maha Pengampun, Maha bijaksana..dan baaanyak lagi.. aku tau taubat nasuha tu penting..sesungguhnye aku benar2 berharap agar Allah terime taubat aku..klu boleh..dan aku harap Allah izinkan..aku nak berdamping dgn org yg btol2 mencintai Allah ..dan boleh bimbing aku utk same2 memburu cinta Allah..aku nak berdamping dgn org camtu sampai akhir hayat aku :) dan aku btol2 harap zuriat aku kelak..akan jadi lebih baik drpd aku..

aku pun sedar..yg utk mendapatkan segale itu..aku pun kene berusaha..iman manusia kat setipis kulit bawang..make..dgn itu..aku kene la tambahkan ilmu utk tingkatkan keimanan insyaAllah..

fuh..insap aku kali ni..well..things happen ..n the things that happen made me think..
satu lagi..aku nak promote http://rnysa.blogdrive.com kat blog ni..bacela cerite relevankah aku dihatimu ..citer ni psl cinta 2 org sahabat..ok fine..lagi2 cinta..hehe..tapi novel bersiri die ni agak unik sbb die bersulamkan ayat2 alquran dan fikrah2 islami..

pesanan penaja: tujuan aku tulis ni ialah utk ingatkan diri aku diatas kesedaran aku yg sekejap dtg sekejap pergi..tapi sesape yg terbace blog ni..sile lah bace at ur own risk..haha..

EPI BDAY MUNN!!!

dunnolah..

ok..and ere i am in front of my bro's pc..and really wishing 'yeh' would just contact me [sms@call@email]..

spent a blast sunday with him..jemput him at the airport at 8 am..and we went to pyramid just lepaking there until 4. Funny when we lose our car [forget where on earth we parked]..fun the whole day..sad ..when it was time for him to leave for perlis..heh..

and now.. just wishing 4 him..wishing in my self not to lose trust...sigh* ..y is it so easy for some ppl to have hopes like i do..
i hate crushes..

so far he has only been smsing once..and emailing once..
yeah ..guess he is buzy with his fam..he should be very happy over there in perlis :)..
hope he'll be contacting me very soon..

and just now..as i was hoping he'd be online..i went to the channel where we first met on mirc..
he wasnt there..but my ex was..

ok..and i'm chatting with him..with a malas nak layan habit..dunt wanna be cruel but not too kind..[u guys know wut i mean..no hopes..no no]..its just..the situation with him n yeh is not so good..he's been saying the kinds of things like..yeh took me away from him..and all that crap..well..if anyone is in the wrong..i'd chose to be blamed..it is just not yeh's fault things happened the way it has..:)

well there..its very clear that i'm in love isnt it? haha..hate things to be this way..the holidays are boring..i'm just so confused with yeh..he is so near yet he doesnt contact me..he said that he'll call soon..but when? i'm so easy to lose patients and to lose hope..yeah rite..the holidays arent too kind.. i cant beleive that i'm thinking 'i prefer my exams week'..
gosh..hehe

dun get me wrong.. i dun spent my time thinking of yeh only..i do all kinds of things at home..but the 'missing you' thingy gets me at times like this..i cant sleep well at night..and i have no one to talk to coz everyone else is still asleep..:)..

omg..guess what i'm thinking rite now? XM RESULTS!!..owhh this is a BIG no no..i should end the blog b4 i freak out...

daa~