New Me? Naah..just sleepless ramblings..

Alhamdulillah, its been awhile since i changed my blogskins. The most previous was just customizing the classic blogger design..(malas sungguh)

But since we managed to get the internet working again, me and hubby searched high and low for new blogger skins. We went to blogskins.com but we end up frustrated. Why? Well, we just couldn't figure why they are now making smaller space to write and leaving so much empty space, or to say, useless space. Then we searched again and actually found a couple more interesting skins for blogger on other sites..(i almost made up my mind to move from blogger to wordpress). But there was a problem..the codes for the nice ones were xml, not html. I had a hard time try and error thingy getting my blog pretty..huhu..

Luckily I found a website, a really helpful one. So if anyone wanted to change to any XML skins, pls go to this site yeah?

Noticed the 'new blogs updated' widget? They seemed to be working fine, but it seems that blogger and blogdrive just dont get along :P ..sorry shy, aku x dapat add ko kat situ..but u know i always always always stalk your blog :p hehe

And clever me did a clever thing by not saving my previous skin..so i've lost every friends' blog links that i've already added previously. The ones that I've added are the lucky ones which I've memorized or managed to searched from the blogs which I've memorized. Does this sentence make sense?? hehehe I just totally fail at writing :P
So, if any of you guys happen to read this entry, please let me know your blog url so i can add them in my list okie? Thank you..muaxx!

Next project will be searching and contrsucting hubby's new blog skin! Anyone knows of any websites with nice xml blogger skins??
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Last night we watched Full House (korean)..cerita dah lama baru nak tengok kan? Reason is that when it was famous I didn't watch it coz simply 'macam x minat je'..hehe then towards the last series I watched a bit and fell in love but did not have time to download the series. And same goes for hubby..so i guess its just fate right?? So we can watch it together-gether :P hehe

Then we watched P.S I Love U. Well, the storyline didn't quite well follow the novel..but I guess for me its still ok lah.
And I actually cried watching not one, but some of the scenes, and got laughed at by hubby. Asked him ' Tak sedih ke??' He just sengih and shook his head :P

Well...I guess that I'm getting more and more passionate through the years..I used to not cry when I see people cry, but now..its different :)
I don't think that I'm proud of it though..but not embarrassed by it either. hehe

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Just remembered that Kak Opin tagged me a few days ago.
Sorry Kak Opin, just got around to do it now as was stuck searching for new skins, plus the internet line that goes on and off :D

I been tag by Kak Opin.

The Rules:
1. Write your own six word memoir
2. Post it on your blog and include a visual illustration if you’d like
3. Link to the person that tagged you in your post
4. Tag six more blogs with links
5. And don’t forget to leave a comment on the tagged blogs with an invitation to play!

Mine is :

My Way of Life is Islam

Tagging:

1) Nurul Syahida
2) Munn (update! update!)
3) Tim (aa ni aku bagi idea dah nak tulih ape ni hehe)
4) Abang
5) Pa'ah
6) Mieza

Kak Opin, Thanks so much for the prayers and for your effort in asking readers to say the prayers too. We really2 appreciate it lots!!!
Mekaceh :D

I'm blessed for very2 loving husband and inlaws kan? :D Alahamdulillah..
Oh, and if anyone is interested to learn new cooking recipes, pls enter her blog.
The food looks waaay delicious, and I truly mean it!

Internet is back!

Alhamdulillah, now we can access the internet from home! :D no need to take the bus to the cc anymore hehehe

I'm overly excitedkan? hello..since i was in form3 mmg dah terbiase dengan internet..and it got worst after form5. Ye la, time tu kan lepas SPM make berdangdutlah sentiasa bersama MIRC dan Ie. Time tu tau Ie ngan Mirc jek la..dah lame sket baru tukau masuk Ym. Then masuk MMU lagi la 24hrs internet, sumer bende pun pakai internet..nak borak dgn rumet yg ade kat depan mata pun pakai Ym hahaha. Tapi bukan selalu la..penah buat ngan azrah je sebab nak ngumpat rumet lagi sorang. And rumet lagi sorang tu pun ade kat dalam bilik..heh tatau la obvious ke tak..obvious ke azrah? hehe :P

So kesimpulannye sekarang ni pun xde internet rase mcm..makan hotdog tapi takde hotdog, minum ribena takde ribena, naik basikal takde tayar..aa camtu la perasaan die
Tapi yg best nye bukan aku sorang, abg pun gitu jugek..tu pasal la walaupun agak jauh sikit, kitorang secare sukarela kadang2 berjalan ke cc :D (walaupun mlm tu baru lepas wat d&c..hehe)

And skarang pulak dah xleh nak jalan sgt. First sebab tghri panas, malam ok tapi kat mesir tengah summer holidays..so ramai sgt orang. Nanti nak naik bas sume mcm payah..pastu aku ni plak jenis x minat sgt orang ramai2..aku takut orang..tah pape tah kan? heh ..

Aku dah back on track, badan pun x lemah cam haritu dah..cume x berani lagi buat kije berat2. Ye la, kat luar mmg xde ape, tapi kat dalam proses healing masih sedang berlaku walaupun aku x nampak dan x rase. Tapi takpe, abg tengah cuti skang..selalu tolong binik die yg mengade ni hehe :D

Oh lupe, malam tadi Tim dah buat blog..sape2 yg kenal tim sile add blog die kat lists kawan2 blogger korang k..sile masuk sini

And since aku free dan x keluar rumah ni, maka aku rase nak buat tag yg kak opin tag dulu..sile2

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog7 facts about me ;)

Here goes:

1. I have a major stage fright. Oleh itu, tolongla jangan suruh aku bercakap di khalayak ramai..kalau suruh gak aku akan buat something unpredictable. Contoh, masa aku terpakse jadi ahli panel forum yg MMU buat kat MRSM Beseri satu ketika dulu..aku seolah2 bercakap ngan budak tadika. Sampaikan prof keluar dewan..wahahahaha

2. Aku suke berkawan, alhamdulillah aku ade ramai kawan. Tapi mulut aku ni ade mood die sendiri. Bile die rase nak borak, die akan borak segale mende. Tapi bile die rase nak diam, otak aku pun ikut diam..sampai aku tatau nak cakap ape, takde idea langsung. Macam mulut kene gam camtula..

3. Cita2 aku ape dari kecik? Mestila nak jadi surirumah yg ade at least Masters Degree. Tapi nak jadi surirumah yg ade bisnes..jadi cita2 ni mungkin akan tercapai banyak tahun lagi lepas aku kaya. Tapi camne nak kaya? Harga minyak naik tinggi sangat ni, bile minyak naik sume bende pun nak naik sama..kerajaan kire keuntungan/penjimatan kerajaan, petronas kire kos die tinggi (untung pun tinggi x kire??), rakyat pulak..hmm..tak buat ape2 pun salah, nak buat ape2 pun xtau nak buat ape. Silap sikit maka ISA lah kamu..ok, dah lari topik.

4. Oh, dan aku x bleh tengok orang gosok gigi. Komfem nak muntah kalau tengok. Tulis pasal org gosok gigi pun buat aku rasa loya.

5. Tidur malam? Susah gile..bile baca buku kadang2 lagi susah nak tido. Kalau buku tu best aku kene baca sampai abis, kalau tak best aku mesti rase boring dan otak aku mesti nak pk bende lain. Dulu penah amal makan ubat tidur, tapi side effect die badan senang naik dan aku sangat2 lethargic. Jadinye skang dah tinggalkan ubat tidur, lagipun tengah honeymoon setahun hahaha..tapi 2-3 harini mcm pandai pulak aku tido malam :)

6. Aku suke jalan2..jalan2 berjam2 pun aku boleh, provided aku pakai kasut yg betul. Vincci ke Nose ke yg cantik2 tu komfen x bleh, kompem sakit kaki dan hati. Paling best pakai selipar jepun, selipar bata atau yg mahal skit tapi best kasut Clarks.

7. Aku jeles la tengok org pregnant yg aku nampak mase keluar jalan2..hehe..normal la tu kan? Uh, aku nak baby la..Selalu kene doa yg terbaik kan? hehe

Sape aku tag?
Takde sape, sape2 rase nak buat, buat la.



Lagi satu, sape2 yg cari org utk buat kije2 seperti mengedit gamba atau yg lebih kurang mcm tu btau aku ek..Sementara musim org kawen ni, photographer mesti kurang masa nak edit gamba kan? aa..dan sementara aku takde ape nak buat ni bleh la nak cari income sket kan? ehehe

ok, sekian terima kaseh

resting

I'm still in resting mode and having my ever helpful hubby to take care most parts of the house. He has been so very loving, caring and helpful, it makes me easier to get my spirits up. As per tim's advise ' nad, u have to be strong..for him and for yourself. u have to be strong for him, for him to be strong for u' hehe..kinda confusing, but a lot of truth in it...

I didnt realize that after a miscarriage, ppl also need to 'berpantang' hehehe..so my so called 'berpantang' days begins right after the d&c.
How to berpantang? :P

Turns out that Kak Opin, our mommies (mine and yeh's) have some history of some type of miscarriage..and i'm so lucky to get their advise.

ok, what to eat and what not to eat?

To eat:
nasik, roti, yogurt, soups, ayam, daging, ikan, black seed (habbatussauda), honey erm..pls do comment on more food i shd take that i've actually left out k? :D

Not to eat:
fruits, food which are too hot or too cold, oily food, fast food, spicy food, fruit juice (i missed them..), coke/pepsi/the likes, ice....erm..anything else tak?

And most importantly i have to eat small portions but to eat more times than the usual 2-3 meals a day coz i cannot let my tummy goes empty, else i'll be getting headaches and tummy aches and other aches..

I've resume taking honey every morning (as per kak opin and mom's advise)..but this time managed to find the "original honey plus habbatusauda" sold nearby. Its a bit more expensive than the rests but its worth it. And since i've begin taking it, i can sleep! yes, i used to be insomniac..sleep is hard! I envy those who can fall asleep once their head reach the pillow..like hubby :P

And plus, i've felt better..yes, i'm still tired due to the d&c at times..but i guess i've felt healthier..and so does hubby ( i made it for him as well)..

well, i'm gonna take extra care of ourselves and hope nothing we take will effect our fertility in a bad way..coz obviously we'd like to try again someday...eventually ;)

owh and while i was still pregnant, i actually killed a baby lipas..and i feel bad :( .. and i'm making a note to myself not to ever kill any baby lipas again..but they are grossss...wuttodoo??..i dunno lah...huhu

Thanks to those who came by to read my blog and thanks for dropping your comments. I really (million times) appreciate them!

owh and lupe

Tahniah to :

Hawa Liyana Hashim (my dearest cousin)
who got married on 31st May to her beloved fiance. May our children be bestfriends like we are and can go to standard one on the same year like we did :D hehehe (boleh pulak ek ade cita2 camni)

Nurul Ayuni Fisal (exsmkaks-5amal) who also got married on the 31st

Wan Suriaty Wan Jaafar (exsmkaks-5Iman) 1st June.

Selamat pengantin baru.

Pa'ah, nak tengok gamba pengantin plis! :D
Mun, Lan dan Shy, cepatla update pasal rombongan ke pahang! x sabar ni..

Allah has better plans for us in store :)

ala apsal kecik sgt plak? ha ni edited by pa'ah ..gamba klas kitorang mase mude remaje wakaka..aku yg plg pendek tepi skali tu :P maceh cik pa'ah kerane bagi aku menkopi pes.

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Since i got the good news of my pregnancy i've actually been bleeding..sometimes light and sometimes mild. Risau jugak, ask our gynae mase mule2 dulu she checked but found nothing. We were advised that if it got heavier we shd straight away go to see her again.


so..weeks passed, someday with and someday without the bleeding. Pregnancy symtoms were not much but i dont really mind coz i knew that some ppl never experience anything at all.


Then last week the bleeding got a bit heavier than usual, so we went straight to our gynae 'Dr Sa'deah'. She was superbly nice, dont speak english well but tried her best to make me understand..luckily i've familirized myself with the medical terms through articles in the internet :P.


Anyways, we were told to get an ultrasound. We found out that the sac collapsed and the baby only managed to live until 4 weeks. They call it 'Missed abortion'. It was sad. I admit that i cried at home with my dear hubby to comfort me :). But I strongly beleif that Allah has something better in store for us, and that made me smile, and made me and hubby stronger ;).


So the doctor gave me misoprostol to expell the sac and fetus naturally. Although lots and lots of blood clots came out, the sac never did.Due to that, last night I had to undergo D&C..it was surely a night to remember.



the d&c


The nurses and doctors dont speak english much. So they asked me a few basic english questions like 'whats ur name', 'how old are you', 'how many times u eat per day', 'you are beautiful' and etc.


And the part where they put me under anesthesia they asked, "nadiah, can you read the Quran?" I said yes. They were happy and asked me to recite Alfatihah before they begin the procedure. As soon as I finished, the anesthasia kicked in.


I woke up to find myself somewhere else, hubby and another woman beside me. Everything was done and I didnt feel a thing, Alhamdulillah.


I was confused who the woman might be. She calls herself Mama Huda. Her son pun undergo surgery gak coz patah tangan, and while waiting for his son she went to comfort yeh while he was waiting for me. She cried and asked for the doctors to let her in to see me, helped yeh carry me onto another bed, bought me some air kotak and even gave 100 egyption pounds for my recovery.
Alhamdulillah, may Allah bless her.
But a bit sad coz i was blur last night and didnt manage to get her phone number. I pray for Allah to give her everything she needs, everything she wants..



All in all, yes we are so very sad. And at the same time we strongly beleive that Allah has better plans in store for us :D.


To all moms to be..take care okie..and pls pray for this mommy wannabe :P hehehe



some pics


senget kanlah kepale anda ek.. aku tengah malas nak edit ekeke

Epi bday to me!

Yup, i'm 25 and proud of it. Ceh..padehal sblm tulih ni tadi terpakse gune calculator 2008 - 1983 sbb terlupe umo sendiri wakakaka..

Tahun ni besday aku kat mesir,bersame hubby dan our li'l 'N' junior inside of me. Hmm..as i'm writing this its already 12.49 but not a single wish, hugs or kisses from my hubby yet..i wonder y..did he forget? Btw, he is on the internet gak,bukak friendster plak tu..Alah biase la tu, men kan? Hehe..tp last week he bought me a nice crystal necklace frm asfour. Esok nak suh die pakaikan..hehe ;p ngadee

Tq shy for being the first to wish :p

Tq all, for making my whole 25years memorable :)

P/s i kinda miss the family's traditional birthday lunch/dinner plus the secret recipe bday cake..too bad, no secret recipe ere..kalau x dah lame buli encik hubby kan? :p

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Its 01:07am now, he just realised my birthday :p. I've just received the hugs n kisses plus a lollipop! Tq abg! Hehe die kate esok nak beli kek jugak sbb tensen bace post ni tadi wakaka..apetah :p

Whatever pun, i just want 2 say..thank u, i 'heart' u and will remember this precious day with u till forever..hiks~

Lets reserve the lollipop till esok k? :D

HeartsLotsLotsHearts

tagged by anis

Been tagged by cik Anis

ok here goes :D

7 random facts about me:

1. dah 5 bulan kawen

2. baru pegnen ~ngee :P

3. suke buli org specially encik abgyeh

4. suke gi jalan2

5. xleh sgt dok rumah lame

6. xleh dok diam

7. suke jerit2 dan merapu :P

7 things that scares me:

1. takut hukuman Allah

2. takut 'kehilangan' ape2 pun

3. berat makin bertambah (kalau pregnen xpela..tu pun kene dlm kawalan..pasal aku ni pendek, kalau makin gomok, nampak makin pendek la kan hehe)

4. takut tikus

5. takut gelap

6. takut jalan sorang2..nanti mulela ter imagine ade org jahat tengah ikut la ape la :P

7. takut pandang cermin malam2..terpengaruh dgn citer hantu zaman kanak2 hehe

7 random music:

aa pasal music ni aku layan je sme..kecuali yg ade lirik yg bongek ataupun suare2 dan musik yg bleh buat aku sakit kepale..

7 things i say the most:

1. uii bestnye

2. whateverr..sambil jeling mata keatas :P

3. ala kesiannye die..

4. lebiu!! u lebme??? ngee :D

5. aku dah pegnen!! (just started recently hehe)

6. lapa nye...

7. jom kua??

7 things i treasure most:

1. the family

2. My dearest encik abgyeh

3. My bffs (mun, shy, tim, aja, hawa dll) and girl friends :D

4. everyone who came to the wedding

5. my phone (actually sold yeh's old one for this new sony ericsson k710i..ke apetah nama hp ni hehe)

6. ppl who loves me or ppl wo remembers my birthday or at least remember me

7. skolah qurratul ain shah alam..gile rindu skolah tu, ngan ustazah/ustaz die..ngan kawan2..ngan sume2 lah..

7 'first time' things i ever did:

1. kawen

2. pegnen, and btau kawan2 n family bout the news

3. duduk serumah ngan encik abg yeh :P

4. jalan2 deting kat mesir

5. cube cakap arab ngan org mesir mase nak beli barang

6. experimental cooking :P ye la..dok mesir mane bleh beli lauk kat luar kan..jadi bile teringin terpakse la buat2 pandai masak..wakaka

7. tak berkerja..lepak2 je kat rumah (best rupenye hehe)

7 ppl to do this:

1. mieza

2. shy

3. ignita

4. angah - sile la update blog ko tuuhh heheh

5. safiyah

6. kak opin hehe

7. encik abgyeh :D

Gudnius!!

Oleh kerana encik 'bendere jepun' x kunjung tiba selama 2 bulan, maka aku ngan encik yeh pun menganbil kata sepakat utk buat pregnancy test utk yg ke sekian kalinya :P.

hoh..tak disangke2 ade 2 line yg bermaksud ' hey congrats nad n yeh!! ur pregnant!!! '. Kami terkesima tapi takmo lompat2 dulu..takut false positive (walaupun highly unlikely).

so esoknye kitorang pun naik la bas pergi lab utk buat test darah. seperti biase dokte x jumpe urat kat tangan aku neh..(selalu camtu..byk lemak sgt kot heheh :P)

memule cucuk tangan kanan..silap cucuk rupenye, jadi darah x kua langsung. pahtu cucuk lengan belah kiri, alhamdulillah 'cucukan' yg tepat!

tunggu 5 minit dokte tersebut pun panggil nama aku..muke serius jek..

pahtu die pandang encik abg yeh 'congratulations, ur wife is pregnant' ~ngeeee we were all smiles..alhamdulillah :D

lepas je dapat gudnius ni encik abg yeh pun belanje makan mo'men..nyum nyummm sedap wooo

btw, beberapa hari sebelum gi amik test tu encik abgyeh jatuh bas..jadi mase otw jalan still limping la kan..walaupun dah kene urut, bengkak x surut lagi. tapi bile dapat je gudnius terus sengeh sorang2, dah hilang terus rase sakit kaki hehe :P

Tq shy sbb dah announcekan harituh..ni baru la dpt post entry.

hmm..petang lepas dpt result tu plak terus gi jumpe gynae. Die scan tapi x nampak ape2 lagi..so the next appt will be 20th May..doa2 la nampak cik fetus hehe

kalau kire2 ikut lmp, dah 2 bulan dah ni..tapi aku punye period cycle kurang normal sket..so aku rase baru 4-6weeks kot..jadi tatau la dah bleh nampak ke blom sebenanye

as for now..symptom2 awal pregnancy tu ade la sket2..tapi xde la morning sickness lagi. encik abgyeh pun nampaknye sudah makin caring dah ni..uu..hik hik hik..mekaseh :D

jadinye, skang dah kene start bace quran banyak2..bagi cik budak yg belom jadi budak kat dlm ni akan jadi budak yg comel, sehat, solehah/soleh, pandai dan macam2 lagi ..aminn :D