In My Owntime - Delta Goodrem

So much is happening to me.
So much that I can't even see.
So many words of wisdom that I am trying to be.
Catch me if I should fall.
And even more so while I'm standing tall.

My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy.
I'm spinning around and it's making me ill.
You don't understand what I'm going through
just to find a way to climb
It'll be in my own time.
It'll be in my own time.

Whispering thoughts in all different ways.
That I'm in a daze.
My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy.
I'm spinning around and it's making me ill.
You don't understand what I'm going through
just to find a way to climb

It'll be in my own time.
'cause it'll be in my own time.
In my own time. In my own time

I'll take a chance.
In my own time I'll find romance.
In my own time.
It'll be mine.

After the clouds there'll be the rain.
After the sun there'll be the moon it doesn't matter. '
cause it'll be in my own time
it'll be in my own time

The day you went away

Atuk passed away recently, leaving us cousins closer to wan than ever..

Wan revealed that she married atuk when she was at the age of 10, biaselah..arranged marriage..so that means they've been together for about 60++yrs..wonder???

Story by Wan

Satu hari tu wan ngan atuk boring2 kat rumah, atuk cakap kat wan ' kesian awak x dapat tengok tv'..atuk ngan wan kongsi2 duit beli la 1 tv.
Lepas 2-3 hari tv dah tak boleh bukak...atuk ngan wan kat rumah dah boring dah, jadi atuk pun carila sume dokumen2 yg berkaitan dengan tv tu.
Atuk try nak bace, tapi tak nampak langsung dah..die mintak air lepas tu terus naik atas ke bilik wan. Die masuk toilet, lame jugak ..bile atuk keluar wan tanye 'awak buat ape lame2?'..atuk sakit perut rupenye.
Atuk mintak wan amikkan ubat, die nak baring kejap. Elok je nak bejalan, badan die melayang..nasib baik wan sempat tangkap, peluk and papah die naik katil.
Badan sume dah pucat sangat..atuk kate die dah tak boleh bernafas..
Dan sejurus selepas tu, atuk pun pergi..

Inalillah..

wan kat rumah sorang2..jerit2 mintak tolong jiran tapi sorang pun x dengar.
wan call semua org, wan tak pandai gune handphone atuk, tapi cube jugek..wan bagitau atuk sakit tenat. Andak balik terus bawak pergi hospital, shah pun sempat pergi hospital..cume untuk sahkan yg atuk dah takde.


Abah cerita mase mandikan atuk, mayat atuk bersih sangat..senang je..
Alhamdulillah...everyone of us gets to kiss atuks' forehead one last time..and, that is when the pang of sadness hit me..
Every week I'll pay very frequent visits to wan..and if possible to bring wan to visit Atuks' grave..


Me and Hawa, we are planning to get married somewhere end of this yr to early next yr...dates have been set but its all up to us couples ;)

Tak kesah la bile pun kitorang decide our wedding dates..hope that it will remain...InsyaAllah..

"Ya Allah, Engkau mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berkumpul kerana mengasihiMu, bertemu untuk mematuhi perintahMu, bersatu memikul beban dakwahMu, hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk mendaulat dan menyokong syariatMu. Maka eratkanlah Ya Allah akan ikatannya dan kekalkan kemesraan diantara hati-hati ini. Ya Allah, perkenankanlah permintaan ini."