destinasi..

Destinasi cinta

Menyingkap tirai hati

Mengintai keampunan

Di halaman subur rahmat-Mu, Tuhan

Tiap jejak nan bertapak

Debu kejahilan

Akan ku jirus dengan madu keimanan

Tak ternilai airmata dengan permata

Yang bisa memadamkan api neraka

Andai benar mengalir dari nasuha nurani

Tak kan berpaling pada palsu duniawi

Destinasi cinta yang ku cari

Sebenarnya terlalu hampir

Hanya kabur kerana dosa di dalam hati

Telah ku redah daerah cinta

Yang lahir dari wadah yang alpa

Tiada tenang ku temui

Hanya kecewa menyelubungi

C/O

Ku gelintar segenap maya

Dambakan sebutir hakikat

Untuk ku semai menjadi sepohon makrifat

Moga dapat ku berteduh di rendang kasih-Mu

Namun ranjaunya tidak akan sunyi

Selagi denyut nadi belum berhenti

Durjana syaitan kan cuba menodai

Segumpal darah bernama hati(Destinasi cinta Ilahi)

Lestarikan wadi kalbuku, oh Tuhanku

Leraikan aku dari pautan nafsu

Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redha-Mu

Namun masihku mengharap ampunan-Mu

Wahai Tuhanku… Ya Allah…

hehe..lagu ni amek dr website zaim..thanx zaim! nak denga lagu ni sile gi website die eh? nad skang malas nak letak mp3 kat blog..tggu la bebile rajin.

skang me n yeh dah back to normal (better i shd say :D)..and just when things r getting better, abg ipar yeh dpt laptop baru n yeh n his bro dah x dpt online cam slalu..yela takkan nak donlod ym dlm laptop abg ipar die plak kan? haiseh..

n then lps raye die nak masuk blaja..once dah masuk no pc n no handphone..huiyyo..kejam..

takot sgt sebenanye .. tp well, trust n doa have to be there always ..moge2 Allah izinkan kitorang hingge ujung nyawe :D.. ~amin

p/s korang tlg aminkan la jugak ek? tengkiyu!! :D

little things..big things..

okie things are not going well lately specially with my dearest yeh..
seems since the day he board the plane to uk we've been having miscommunications..i guess i was at fault, but things get confusing when each of us felt we are at fault..and both are scared of losing each other..i dunno..

been calling him 2 times since last nite..which he..doesnt respond well..and..been smsing a lot..which he would be replying 1 or 2..
sigh..dunt know wuts epening 2 us..

yeah i know there are ups n downs in a relationship..and i hope our situation rite now wouldnt be the end of us..gees..so i am that scared of losing him..wow..

*sad mode..n hoping things would get back to normal..and wondering whther i can turn back time?..huhu

wish list currently:
1. have money n permission to go meet him in uk even for a while..
2. be able to continue taking masters in uk with him
3. find a place for my industrial training
4. i want to pass all my subjects this sem without letting my cgpa go down..

crazy wish list huh? but this is what i want.. :(
plz plz plz..haish..

sad 12/10

okie..so yeh is going away to uk on 12/10..and i'm not ok coz i know i'll be missing him lots..

hehe ppl..sowie lame x apdet! aa ni ha nak apdet neh :P

first of all this is one of my fav conversations with aisyah hehe:

nad : tah..kadang cam pk..its not worth to care..
nad : kan?
i-syah: yup
i-syah: its not worth to care for ppl yg tak appreciate kite
nad : yupp
nad : so i just have to apply the 'so-wut' attitude
nad : ignorance is bliss
i-syah: hmm..
i-syah: but sakit hati..
nad : yeah..
nad : but u feel hurt when u think bout it
nad : so..y think when u can just ignore
nad : rite?
i-syah: hmm.. can also
i-syah: but the problem is.. u can juz ignore it like a few sec n it came back to u later
nad : so..ignore it again
nad : until u eat ur heart out
nad : so..its better when u dont have a heart
nad : its better if u dont feel
i-syah: can also la like dat!
i-syah: i need to be a persoon without a heart so dat i cant feel nwthing
nad : yeah
nad : me: a person without a heart n a brain that doesnt function
nad : perfecto!
i-syah: i dont want like dat
i-syah: i want a person without heart but still has a feeling n brain to think ..
i-syah: can aa?
nad : yeah..of coz
nad : feel all u want using ur brain
nad : i think that wld make perfect sense
i-syah: ok.. ill try from today onwards
nad : no u cant
nad : coz u still have a heart
nad : and undeniable that u have a big one
i-syah: no no..it become smaller u know
nad : serious?nad : cant u make it big again?
nad : or do u want me donate mine so that it becomes big again?
nad : i dont mind
nad : not at all
nad : my pleasure!
i-syah: no thanks!!
i-syah: i think small is enough
i-syah: it can grow bigger when the time come
i-syah: so no need to worry
nad : so when it does..it'll be trouble n more trouble
nad : coz definitely it'll coz hurt again
i-syah: hope not nemore!
nad : so how now?
nad : yeah..perfect..when u have a big heart..u can hope!
nad : yey
i-syah: in dat case.. it can be like a ballon,. can grew bigger..then get smaller again.. but sumtime it burst in the air
nad : it burst?

ok..long oredi..after that we went on jadi gile talking bout these things..ehehe
currently life is not beautifull..no way no no

things to get done:
1. read chapter 1-4 for ethics
2. get the doc. prepared by fom latest by monday
3. get hold of any companies that r offering internships..[cyber n putra only plz]
4. print mr sonny's slides
5. go n get back cd from Dr Ali to see which 4 journals he approves of
6. prepare the ind. assignment at least 40% before the meeting with him
7. go n see Dr Ali on wednesday 4.30
8. remember the appointment at Ampang Puteri on Thurs after 2
9. have fun with yeh on sat n sunday..gosh..gonna reaally miss him..
..etc

haha..n siang td..met a friend [who currently makes one kinda face when ur near..as if u smell or sumthing] n haha..had fun forcing her to talk like old times..how did i do that?
by just pretending we were close friends like b4 n just chit chatting with her in front of other friends :D well, at first she was just..hmm ya..umm..owh..yupp thingy n ignoring questions asked by me..but later..haha..she learnt to relax..n treated me 'like' a friend. well..at least its better than b4..i'm just so confused coz i dont know what went wrong between us..huhu

ok..so wut..remember..apply my 'so-wut' attitude!!

.so-wut attitude activated..blogging paused.