In My Owntime - Delta Goodrem

So much is happening to me.
So much that I can't even see.
So many words of wisdom that I am trying to be.
Catch me if I should fall.
And even more so while I'm standing tall.

My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy.
I'm spinning around and it's making me ill.
You don't understand what I'm going through
just to find a way to climb
It'll be in my own time.
It'll be in my own time.

Whispering thoughts in all different ways.
That I'm in a daze.
My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy.
I'm spinning around and it's making me ill.
You don't understand what I'm going through
just to find a way to climb

It'll be in my own time.
'cause it'll be in my own time.
In my own time. In my own time

I'll take a chance.
In my own time I'll find romance.
In my own time.
It'll be mine.

After the clouds there'll be the rain.
After the sun there'll be the moon it doesn't matter. '
cause it'll be in my own time
it'll be in my own time

The day you went away

Atuk passed away recently, leaving us cousins closer to wan than ever..

Wan revealed that she married atuk when she was at the age of 10, biaselah..arranged marriage..so that means they've been together for about 60++yrs..wonder???

Story by Wan

Satu hari tu wan ngan atuk boring2 kat rumah, atuk cakap kat wan ' kesian awak x dapat tengok tv'..atuk ngan wan kongsi2 duit beli la 1 tv.
Lepas 2-3 hari tv dah tak boleh bukak...atuk ngan wan kat rumah dah boring dah, jadi atuk pun carila sume dokumen2 yg berkaitan dengan tv tu.
Atuk try nak bace, tapi tak nampak langsung dah..die mintak air lepas tu terus naik atas ke bilik wan. Die masuk toilet, lame jugak ..bile atuk keluar wan tanye 'awak buat ape lame2?'..atuk sakit perut rupenye.
Atuk mintak wan amikkan ubat, die nak baring kejap. Elok je nak bejalan, badan die melayang..nasib baik wan sempat tangkap, peluk and papah die naik katil.
Badan sume dah pucat sangat..atuk kate die dah tak boleh bernafas..
Dan sejurus selepas tu, atuk pun pergi..

Inalillah..

wan kat rumah sorang2..jerit2 mintak tolong jiran tapi sorang pun x dengar.
wan call semua org, wan tak pandai gune handphone atuk, tapi cube jugek..wan bagitau atuk sakit tenat. Andak balik terus bawak pergi hospital, shah pun sempat pergi hospital..cume untuk sahkan yg atuk dah takde.


Abah cerita mase mandikan atuk, mayat atuk bersih sangat..senang je..
Alhamdulillah...everyone of us gets to kiss atuks' forehead one last time..and, that is when the pang of sadness hit me..
Every week I'll pay very frequent visits to wan..and if possible to bring wan to visit Atuks' grave..


Me and Hawa, we are planning to get married somewhere end of this yr to early next yr...dates have been set but its all up to us couples ;)

Tak kesah la bile pun kitorang decide our wedding dates..hope that it will remain...InsyaAllah..

"Ya Allah, Engkau mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berkumpul kerana mengasihiMu, bertemu untuk mematuhi perintahMu, bersatu memikul beban dakwahMu, hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk mendaulat dan menyokong syariatMu. Maka eratkanlah Ya Allah akan ikatannya dan kekalkan kemesraan diantara hati-hati ini. Ya Allah, perkenankanlah permintaan ini."

To MY bestfriends and Yeh...I love u

20.01.07 Nur Amirah Rashid's wedding at Banting.

went with Mun and Shy..sampai lambat sangat when angah and few others had already left..hiks hiks..

sampai depan rumah pengantin nampak Mira and hubby both in PINK tengah layan tetamu..They looked beautifull and HAPPY full stop :D

Took 1 picture, ate. Mase makan saw Nazim, Fahmi, Syairani, A'asri and sape tah tak perasan sangat..tapi because we were never talking in school so guessed we feel that no effort shd be made to know each other although we were actually glancing at one another as a sign that yeah..i know u..but just that ...hehe

So..question, did we ever consider each other as 'friends'?
Answer..ntah..kompius..tapi pelik, contoh : Aizul
mase sekolah mane ade kitorang penah becakap..but when we met kat mmu we were actually very comfortable in other's presence..sebab kite kawan..as simple as a reason cld be..

we kinda discussed this in the car..tapi i do wish our whole batch at smkaks can be as close when we were form 3..takkesahla..but .. i want all my friends to come for my wedding..yeah.at this point of time i would certainly call all 'the other guys' as friends :D

satu hari ni mostly were spent with mun and shy..rase best sangat sebab we have each other.
I am never close to my family..not bcoz i dont love them, but becoz i dont know how to express myself in front of them..and everyone knows that the best school is actually your family..and -i kinda rely on my bestfriends and yeh to teach me some life valuable lessons..
I like their insights which are mostly funny but yet so true..
Shyda can certainly express her thought in words while mun prefers to express them in sounds haha..as for tim..expressions are usually in her actions and i really wish we can see more of her.

and yehmaster..i love him for who he is and for what he sees in me..if things might not work out for us.. i wish him all the best..and i will pray that he will look back and come searching for me and telling me that i'm the best that has ever happen to him as he is for me...

I LOVE U

f.a.i.l.u.r.e

i'm never gonna forgive myself for writing today's blog for being soo damn low..but don't care

i'm a failure..y?

1. I started a project for Hafizah at Keramat but things did not turn out right..tak dapat pc pun and ppl volunteering in suddenly volunteer-out of the project due to no more volunteers

2. Today is my parents anniversary but they are not speaking to each other..dunt know why but I feel i'm a failure coz i can't do anything about that, what i only do today is mandi, eat, read my Rihard Carlson's book, online and pretend that i dont know anything

3. I've just moved out frm my rented room in Subang bcoz i dislike having an annoyingly irritating officemate living in the same hse..but I feel i'm a failure cos i moved out- instead of her moving out..

4. SPM and PMR? stooopid

5. I feel so bad coz I feel yeh is doing more hard work in the relationship..I'm sorry :(

6. I'm starting a sandwich business coz I'm fed up changing jobs. But I started too early and with no customers yet..business is delivery to cyber/putra, but kids in MMU/UPM/Sri Putri/ Alam Shah are not back yet frm holidays...well hopefully i can get the business running somewhere next mnth..

I received sms frm a person named Ali in UM wanting to join the business, and managed to get Zura to help out at MMU..Pn Rosliah of Cyberjaya Petronas asked me to come with the sample of these sandwiches on Wednesday..but i never can hope too much..

7. I can never get a job in Putrajaya/ Cyberjaya

I know the saying ' The end of the day, the person who wins, is the person who thinks he can..'

no comment...but maybe my stupid mood is influencing..

Most of all, Im reading an Internation Bestseller 'Dont Sweat the Small stuff..and it's all small stuff' by Richard Carlson..but me being me, i'm still feeling the way i feel..

owh..shake it off nad..

Assalamualaikum..

Tumpang lalu boleh? ehehe...
Ooo..best la dia pegi PD ek? Bile kite nak on ni Cik Nadiah Comel?
Abang nak xzam Disember ni. Doakan tau. Nak balik Msia cepat-cepat ni..letih dah duduk sini ha..ehehe..

Misme x?
Berape banyak baju yg Cik Nadiah beli bulan ni?
Take care kat sane tau. ape-ape nanti sms ek?

Bubye!
Love and Doa
Abang.

IT for Hafizah

Assalamualaikum
Dear Friends

I'm currently working on a new project 'IT for Hafiz/Hafizah'.
Found out there's a new school in Keramat consists of 20 children.

This school will only take needy children who are serious in learning/memorizing the Qur'an.
They do not have much, but I am interested in getting them to know the computer; at least Microsoft Office.

Currently they only have 1 PC.
What they need in order for 'IT for Hafiz/Hafizah' to work is more PCs and people teaching them (voluntarily).

To those who are interested to work on this project together, please reply writer asap so we can organize a trip to see the kids and the school's condition.
Details of the school will be provided later to those who are interested.

Me,
Nad Az

t.e.a.r.s

Interesting piece of information
"There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided
into two.
50 people watched a very funny, tears-of laughter type movie.
50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie.
At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers.
They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine...salt water and not a great deal else
However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body.
This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness /heartache experience.
Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves.. . .and prolonged lack-of-crying- release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears....... .is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?"
LESSON FROM THE STUDY: CRY YOUR HEART OUT WHEN YOU ARE SAD, LONELY, ALONE, DEPRESSED... ESPECIALLY WHILE ASKING ANYTHING FROM THE ALMIGHTY .
IT IS GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH!
Qiyam sampai lebam....