:D

May the teachings of those
you admire become part of you, so that
you may call upon them.
Remember, those
whose lives you have touched and who have
touched yours are always a part of you,
even if the encounters were less than you
would have wished. It is the content of
the encounter that is more important than
its form. May you not become too
concerned with material matters, but
instead place immeasurable value on the
goodness in your heart. Find time in
each day to see beauty and love in the
world around you. Realize that each
person has limitless abilities, but each
of us is different in our own way. What
you may feel you lavk in one regard may
be more than compensated for in another.
What you feel you lack in the present may
become one of your strengths in the
future. May you see your future as one
filled with promise and possibility.
Learn to view everything as a worthwhile
experience. May you find enough inner
strength to determine your own worth by
yourself, and not be dependent on
another's judgment of your accomplishments.
May you always feel loved.
-Sandra Sturtz

Pugi!!

I got meself a pugi!!! ahahah..comel pulak, sampai jatuh2 aku wat die..gile saiko main cyber pet :P

smlm tengok af, sbb encik yeh tgk bola..xde org nak chatting..

tetibe mase tgk tuh tersedih plak mase dewang panggil mak bapak naik pentas..bukan sedih sebab parents naik, tp sedih kesian kat aswad sbb parents die dah tadde...astro ni pun satu, panggil la sedare mara die ke hape..hampeh

pastu cam suke plak aizad kua ..ahahah..af tahun ni af yg paling hampeh la..xyah la wat af lg pasni weeyy...buat miskin org asek beli topup je..

hahahah

nak wat survey yg shy suh wat haritu...tapi panjang saaangaaat la shy!!
meh aku wat yg pendek sket hehe

1. Song playing at the moment?
>> kiroro- mirae

2. Reasons for living?
>> khalifah di muke bumi Allah (which i always forget!! herkkkkk..)

3. Do you think you're ok?
>> nope, i'm abnormal never ok

4. Ever donated blood?
>> nope, low blood pleasure :P

5. Favorite color(s)?
>> white, black, mocha, soft colours/pastel colours

6. Accessories you usually wear?
>> engagement ring

7. One song to describe a heartbreak
in the past.
>> lots..cant think

8. Last place you went to?
>> kitchen making my herbalife drink (taste better with cold water i/o milk)

9. Last person you went out with?
>> farin


10. The most exciting sport?
>> bungee jump!!!!

11. Ever had a baby?
>> heerk..nope!

12. Movie you want to watch?
>> sumolah?


13. Any piercings?
>> i can wear earings :D

14. The most romantic gift?
>> mm..yeh once made a kad raya with his own drawing of him n me :P and that 'yourock' slides he posted on my friendster...

15. Acted on stage before?
>> yes..and i loved it hehe

16. Struck by lightning before?
>> noope, hopefully never (tanak jadi anak derhaka!!)

17. Danced with your loved ones
before?
>> not yet, will do hehe

18. Ever wished you could turn back
time?
>> yes...to my schooldays..i kept having dreams bout school (smkaks)..y eh??

19. What would you do if you woke up
one day to find yourself to be with
someone from the opposite sex?
>> after marriage? with him? ...... i'd smile

20. One song that's meaningful to you?
>> dunno?

21. Last person you met?
>> bibik

22. What will you be doing tomorrow?
>> work! next question pls!!!

23. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
>> no way

24. One thing you totally regret
doing/done?
>> being with someone who i despise so much now? who? i wish he never exist...

25. Do people like you?
>> not all..ahahah

26. What was the last game you played
on the computer?
>> dream day wedding ( sucks!!) lagi baik main diner dash!

27. SomeONE who means a lot to you at
the moment?
>> my family, yeh, close friends and then everyone

28. The color of your mobile phone?
>> black

29. Do you hate someone at the moment?
>> yes...but i wish the feeling would go away coz i hate hating ppl

30. What do you wish to happen now?
>> get more money? hehe

31. Last time you ate pizza?
>> dont like pizza

32. Ever been given a ring?
>> yupp! ngeee~

33. Do people think you're weird?
>> guess most ppl do...coz i do ahahah

34. Movies now showing that you hate?
>> dunno?

35. Most important thing in your room?
>> aircond and my bed

36. Last movie watched?
>> wild hogs!

37. Last television show watched?
>> spongebob squarepants

38. Who is the person you want to see
right now?
>> yeh :D

39. Ever called a person useless?
>> yup...and hate myself for it

40. Are you good at hiding your
feelings?
>> never, but mis-expressed them (is there such a word??)

Right Job

Nadiah, the right jobs for you would allow you to be Creative and Personable

With your skills, you could be earning up to $83,000 per year. Find out which jobs match these skills in your personalized Right Job Report. You're a visionary in many people's eyes — able to think outside the box and to come up with your own solutions. You're creative not necessarily in the artistic sense, but because you can expand your mind to do things differently from others.It might take a while for colleagues to recognize and reward you for your entrepreneurial spirit and abilities. That could be because they envy you, or because they find your ideas slightly rebellious — willing to go against the current. All in all, you make it hard for people to pigeon hole you. That is why you, more than others, need a job that allows you to play to your strengths, break out of the mold, and truly excel.

Hahahahaha..so not maersk line

At work

Work starts at 8, now only 7.49 been 20 minutes in the office.

Opened outlook, 15 tasks pending.
Pending tray, 19 pending

Pagi2 yanyan datang bagi magnet surfboard frm bali, mayleng ajak makan kuih semprit yang die buat..wuuh sedap jugak

yanyan: eh u ade blog eh? gile la u! Nanti polis nampak baru tahu! (polis: david)
nad: ade (sengeh jek)

semalam aznim on leave kene take over kije die..harini latha pulak macam tak datang....eeee...mintak2 la die dah mengclearkan pending die sebelum balik semalam..

harini nak call ust hanif..hopefully sijil kursus kawen ade kat die..tanak amik lagi skali! hehe

yey latha dah datang!

jom nak pura2 start kije!
:D

Its ok if u guys hate me, coz i already hate myself

I hate myself when:

1. I'm the cause of my parents' fights since i was a kid
2. I talk back when I was scolded..and get spanked/hits and kicks as a kid..up to now
3. I am so worthless I made my siblings hate me

Dialogue between me and Ehsan:
Me: so what did i do wrong now?
Ehsan: did u know that everyone in the family hates u? that u made mama and abah like
kuli, that you are always harsh with me and anisah? and that u never act the eldest?? oh..pls
grow up!!
Me: I'm sorry..(cried as usual)

Dialogue between me and Anisah
Me: mane remote???
Anisah: mane i tahu
Me: alah ilang lagi..suke sepahkan barang sampai sume bende nak ilang! (sounding very
whiny)
Anisah: Mane tahu!! sikit2 nak marah (sambil baling tepon)
Me: i x marah u laa!!
Anisah: ye la sori..i kan kurang haja! (while locking the door behind her)
Me: Im worthless (cried again)

4. I'm so proud ( as mama puts it)
Mama: Let me tell u the truth of what ppl wanted to say but didnt want 2 hurt u
Me: .... (smiling but tears streaming down)
Mama: U are one of the most proud ppl..amboi, benci sangat dengan mama!! ape mama
cakap sume salah...maybe i salah sebab encourage u to talk freely! U better think of getting
married coz ur mertua's family will hate u, and your husband will leave u!



5. I failed to present my emotions..as it shd be presented
I love them and wish we can always talk nicely and happily
I always use the wrong words
I always use the wrong tone of voice
I have no self esteem, so unsure ...of everything that is going on arnd me
I have all the negative toughts of myself

6. I could never make any decisions wisely..eg: this entry

7. see this entry? i always talk about myself..yes, and maybe mama is right...i'm too proud...

8. I hate myself, does anyone feel better reading this?


Best regards

ThEShameFuLL

In My Owntime - Delta Goodrem

So much is happening to me.
So much that I can't even see.
So many words of wisdom that I am trying to be.
Catch me if I should fall.
And even more so while I'm standing tall.

My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy.
I'm spinning around and it's making me ill.
You don't understand what I'm going through
just to find a way to climb
It'll be in my own time.
It'll be in my own time.

Whispering thoughts in all different ways.
That I'm in a daze.
My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy.
I'm spinning around and it's making me ill.
You don't understand what I'm going through
just to find a way to climb

It'll be in my own time.
'cause it'll be in my own time.
In my own time. In my own time

I'll take a chance.
In my own time I'll find romance.
In my own time.
It'll be mine.

After the clouds there'll be the rain.
After the sun there'll be the moon it doesn't matter. '
cause it'll be in my own time
it'll be in my own time

The day you went away

Atuk passed away recently, leaving us cousins closer to wan than ever..

Wan revealed that she married atuk when she was at the age of 10, biaselah..arranged marriage..so that means they've been together for about 60++yrs..wonder???

Story by Wan

Satu hari tu wan ngan atuk boring2 kat rumah, atuk cakap kat wan ' kesian awak x dapat tengok tv'..atuk ngan wan kongsi2 duit beli la 1 tv.
Lepas 2-3 hari tv dah tak boleh bukak...atuk ngan wan kat rumah dah boring dah, jadi atuk pun carila sume dokumen2 yg berkaitan dengan tv tu.
Atuk try nak bace, tapi tak nampak langsung dah..die mintak air lepas tu terus naik atas ke bilik wan. Die masuk toilet, lame jugak ..bile atuk keluar wan tanye 'awak buat ape lame2?'..atuk sakit perut rupenye.
Atuk mintak wan amikkan ubat, die nak baring kejap. Elok je nak bejalan, badan die melayang..nasib baik wan sempat tangkap, peluk and papah die naik katil.
Badan sume dah pucat sangat..atuk kate die dah tak boleh bernafas..
Dan sejurus selepas tu, atuk pun pergi..

Inalillah..

wan kat rumah sorang2..jerit2 mintak tolong jiran tapi sorang pun x dengar.
wan call semua org, wan tak pandai gune handphone atuk, tapi cube jugek..wan bagitau atuk sakit tenat. Andak balik terus bawak pergi hospital, shah pun sempat pergi hospital..cume untuk sahkan yg atuk dah takde.


Abah cerita mase mandikan atuk, mayat atuk bersih sangat..senang je..
Alhamdulillah...everyone of us gets to kiss atuks' forehead one last time..and, that is when the pang of sadness hit me..
Every week I'll pay very frequent visits to wan..and if possible to bring wan to visit Atuks' grave..


Me and Hawa, we are planning to get married somewhere end of this yr to early next yr...dates have been set but its all up to us couples ;)

Tak kesah la bile pun kitorang decide our wedding dates..hope that it will remain...InsyaAllah..

"Ya Allah, Engkau mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berkumpul kerana mengasihiMu, bertemu untuk mematuhi perintahMu, bersatu memikul beban dakwahMu, hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk mendaulat dan menyokong syariatMu. Maka eratkanlah Ya Allah akan ikatannya dan kekalkan kemesraan diantara hati-hati ini. Ya Allah, perkenankanlah permintaan ini."