A Story of Love & how he got blind..

A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not knowing what to do.

One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than ever. Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: Let's
play hide and seek!

All of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: I want to count, I want to count! And since nobody was crazy enough to want
to seek Madness, all the others agreed. Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: One, two, three...

As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding. Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon, Reason hid in a pile of garbage.
Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the center of the earth. Lie said that it wouldhide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he
ended up breaking. And Madness continued to count: ... seventy nine, eighty, eighty one... By this time, all the vices and virtues were
already hidden - except Love. For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult itis to hide Love.

Madness: ...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven... Just when Madness got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where he hid.

And Madness turned around and shouted: I'm coming, I'm coming! As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because
Laziness had no energy to hide. Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake and Passion at the
center of the earth. One by one, Madness found them all - except Love.

Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love. Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness: You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose bush.

Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose bush. Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop. Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands. Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes.

Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a pitch fork. What have I done! What have I done! Madness shouted. I have left you blind! How can I repair it?

And Love answered: You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide. And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness.

...There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving...there are some love that don't go away...but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity.

Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever.

flowers

I got flowers today!!

I was once told - no matter how much you love
this man, no matter how much he may love you, but
if ever he lifts a hand and hits you...he's not
worth it. I do not think this is easy...but I
guess it is true.....

I got flowers today. It wasn't my birthday or any
other special day. We had our first argument last
night,and he said alot of cruel things that
really hurt me. I know he is sorry and didn't
mean the things he said. Because he sent me
flowers today.

I got flowers today.It wasn't our anniversary or
any other special day. Last night, he threw me
into a wall and started to choke me.
It seemed like a nightmare. I couldn't believe it
was real.I woke up this morning sore and bruised
all over.I know he must be sorry. Because he sent
me flowers today.

I got flowers today,and it wasn't Mother's Day or
any other special day.Last night, he beat me up
again.And it was much worse than all the other
times. If I leave him, what will I do? How will I
take care of my kids? What about money? I'm
afraid of him and scared to leave. But I know he
must be sorry. Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.Today was a very special
day.It was the day of my funeral.Last night, he
finally killed me.He beat me to death.
If only I had gathered enough courage and
strength to leave him,I would not have gotten
flowers today.

crack

as always

weekend hrtu gi tgk shrek2 kat midvalley. Thanx shy,tim n mun for a blast weekend. Jalan2 ngan shy n tim hr sabtu..gi midvalley..tgk shrek2, makan roti boy ramai2, cari kek utk gi umah mun..dr sane gi book fair kat pwtc..ronggeng2 sampai penat..dah petang baru gi umah mun kat bandar utama. penat tapi sonok..yes ur rite ..ukhuwwah itu indah..

burung2 berkicauan, terbang riang diawangan..dan sebahgia itulah yang kuharapkan..subhanallah..

tingat zaman skolah dulu pada aku yang tak seindah mane. mungkin sbb mase tu aku lom dapat berpk ngan elok lg kot..eheh..tappela..there have to be a reason for wutever that has happen..
5 thn dok asrama..btol2 aja aku erti sahabat,erti kasih sayang..ukhuwwah..a part of how to live life..macam2 agik aah. Banyak gak aku dapat dr kuala selangor tu..kawasan yg sepatutnye khir toyo majukan tapi tak maju2 aku pon x paham apsal..huhuh..

baru2 ni dak2 batch spm2000 ngan pmr98 xsmkaks wat miting kat masjid shah alam vvip miting room. klas gitu yek? eheh ni sumer tugiman nye pasal :P..tapi pepehal thanx aah tugiman...ko adalah diantara org2 yg wat aku rase a sense of belongingness mase miting tuh..sori la aku,tim,mun ngan shy x dpt menumpukan perhatian pade miting tuh sbb tatau nape ade sedikit rase janggal..sowie eh..ehehe..
but beleive me as much as u want our batch to again develop a great bonding (ingat tak mase kite form 3 dulu?) ..i want the same for all us jugak :)..aku pon sayang batch aku wey..ehehe..

banyak yg indah..banyak yang tak..tapi biasela..tah nape kite lebih mudah ingat yang x indah drpd yg indah kan?..that i have to improve..ehehe (banyak sebenanye yg aku kene improve..x cukup ilmu lg aku nih ek :P)

dok kat umah mun mmg sronok..adik2 die yg baru darjah 1 ngan darjah 3 solat jugak walaupun parents takde kat umah..cume lambat sikitla..sbb akak die pon lambat jugak..biasela..kepimpinan melalui tauladan la kan? eheheh..
alhamdulillah..family mun mmg aku salute..
mun pon nampak cam solehah je ngan mak ayah die..hehe..naik saham ko nih mun..aku dah kate ko mesti kawen dulu nyer :P..

konon2 nak balik umah kol 9 pagi esoknye..tapi mak mun suh stay lunch..hmm sedap wooo..ikan bakar ade..ulam ade..ikan goreng ade..kerang ade..nyum nyum!! thanx mun :D
dah tu kol 4 baru betolak balik umah..sebelum tu singgah dulu kat shah alam anta tim kat umah..mmg penat..tapi sonoklah spent time ngan korang..;)

balik umah try baju yg baru tempah untuk majlis kenduri kawen paksu..alahai..x elok pulak..terpakse bwk gi alter dlm 2-3 hari ni..tappela paksu nye pasal insyaAllah nad pakai jugak baju tu wokeh?

weekend ni x sempat jumpe mama abah nisah ngan aiman lame2 sbb lepak ngan budak2 tuh..ehehe..tappe i'll make it up later..

k lah.. nak siap2 gi upgnye agm mlm ni..bloggins later ya..chow!

AWAK

______________________________________message: untuk AWAK ______________________________________ Awak Hari ni awak nampak serabut Semo orang kutuk Tapi ada gak hati yang puji jadik you can always count on me Awak Hari ni awak senyum kat saye Tapi Saya buat2 tak nampak Padahal nak elak dari pengsan… Awak Hari ni awak datang kelas saya Tapi Saya buat bodoh ajer Padahal Bumi nie raser cam dah tak cukup graviti Awak Hari ni awak nampak comel Semo orang puji Tapi saya puji dalam hati Padahal Nak gak puji sekuat hati Awak Hari ni saya senyum kat awak Tapi Awak jalan depan saya Jadik Senyum pun tak gune Awak Hari ni awak tego saya Tapi Saya buat2 pekak Padahal Nak elak daripada tak boley berenti borak Awak Hari ni saya tego awak Tapi Saya tego awak dalam hati Jadik Awak tak penah dengar all the gud lucks and take care hari2 Awak Hari ni kita duduk semeje Tapi Raser cam jauh giler Padahal Tak sampai sedepa Awak Hari ni awak beratur belakang saya Tapi saya tak tau nak cakap ape Jadik Saya blah mcm tu ajer Awak Hari ni berubah situasi Tapi Saya still kat sini Padahal Dah kosong tak berisi Awak Hari ni saya nampak awak dari Mc D Tapi Awak tak macam dulu lagi Jadik Saya terdiam sendiri Awak Hari ni saya dah janji..nak pergi Tapi Tak tau kenaper tak boley pegi Padahal Ada yang lagi best menanti Awak Hari ni saya menyesal ade ego yang tinggi Tapi dah takde harapan kat sini Jadik Nak tak nak terpakse sendirik Awak Hari ni hari terakhir nampak awak Tapi awak tak toleh sini awak focus kat tv awak hari ni saya tgk gambar kiter senyum tapi gambar tinggal gambar nak buang sayang nak simpan sedey awak besok antare kita ader “balai berlepas” besok…tak da besok untuk saya besok jugak…tak de besok untuk awak awak semoge satu hari nanti saya menginsafi diri tak nak ada ego tinggi lagi buwat sakit hati awak sebelum pergi hari ni..kat sini saya janji semua ni untuk awak… Sebab kenal awak anugerah terindah penah saye miliki…. Terime kaseh AWAK...________________________________________

eheh..geram lak rase bace mende ni..pepe pon..thanx yeh sbb share mende ni!

bestest..

bestest bday eva

15/5

a parcel arrived from kande yeh containing birthday gifts and cards..muahxx tengkiyu so much!! hehe..cayang yeh :P

16/5

a whole day in shah alam..reunion miting of spm batch 2000. pastu went to che poonz's house makan2..then gi umah tim makan kopok. sonoknye..coz dah lame us 'foursome' tak jumpe (me, tim, shy and mun)..alahai..windu la pulak kat skolah..
thanx poon n tim sbb kasitau aku..

dr sane kol 9 mlm, sampai mmu kol 10..solat tuka baju fy kate lapa..ajak gi makan. kate nak mkn kat bwh je..tapi fy,lala,ima ngan anis gi kidnap sampai gazebo..adesh..tappela bia la yeh tunggu kejap :P

the whole way gi gazebo sonok lak denga si anis bercerite..ehehe..pecah perut kitorang dlm kerete tuh..sampai je gazebo..eh eh eh..siva, nicky, tiaku, poovan ngan abg izar pun ade? alaa..windunyeeee..eheheh

pandang depan..aiks..iza, wawa, amy, fifa, wan ngan yong pulak ade..alang2 kosong join je la dewang nye table..pastu yg bebudak laki tuh join meja yg terdekat..adesh..dah kenyang la pulak..

borak punye borak..tetibe fy ngan lala ketawe..hayyak..tappaham tappaham..tgh2 blur tetibe ade kek datang pastu dewang buat pasukan vocal menyanyi lagu epi bday :P hehe..
tengkiyu kowang..i tak sangke la u..u all btol2 pelakon2 yg hebat!! syabbas inspektor shahabbb!! :D..

hehe..wutever pon..bestest bday eva la..thanx 2 u guys..
liya org first call to wish epi bday..dapat sms from abg faisal n ravin..alahai..so sweet..eheh..

balik2 bilik..seperti yg dijangke..kande yeh dah pun online..had a nice n lovely chat n voice chat wif him..hehe..windu aah..
pastu tgh2 chat gi aah mandi jap..lps je mandi..aiks..ade 2 kad ngan hadiah atas katil..surprise2!!..ehehe..from fy,lala n ayie..dewang kasi frame (fy siap suh letak gamba yeh lagik..) nnti nad letak gamba nad ngan fy lah ek :p..ala thank u sangat tau!!
kat pintu si alynn tampal bday kad..comel :P..
tetibe ade org ketuk pintu..bukak2 si in xuan ngan alynn kat luar pintu nyanyi lagu epi bday dlm keadaan x gosok gigi :D
hehe..sweet kan dewang? ala cayang lah dewang sangat!! tengkiyukk

pastu dpt tons bdy wishes..tq sumer..sayang sumer!!
thanx for making my birthday the bestest bday ever..serius nad x expectlah.. tengkiyu so much!! muahxx!!

second week of the trimester

heh..dah masuk minggu ke2 tapi still tanak gi klas..cuti x cukup la wey..eheh
last weekend gi cameron wif cousin 'hawa' and parents..things happen..tapi alhamdulillah my brain is not that damaged..what ever happen let it be my favourite regret :D

windu cousin aku sowang tu..dulu kecik2 same2 wat kije jahat yg aku pon x paham camne tertimbul idea jahat sebegitu..eheh..gedik!
skang ni dah besa..ape yg kite cite..kite simpan eh?..haih..beshnye kalau ade kembar ..yeah rite..dream on naad..

mase kat cameron bende yg paling banyak dibeli..roses and roses and roses..murah..tapi bune biaela..layu je la..eheh
kat sane sayur murah..ade satu kedai tu ..yg jual sayur ialah seorang pakcik yg sangat tua, sepanjang die menjual die senyum aje..aku kesian..aku kagum sangat ngan pakcik tua ni..aku pon terus ajak mak aku beli sayur yg pakcik ni jual..

aku kagum..sbb pakcik ni kuat kerja..kedai die kemas..die pun kemas..air muke die nampak die tabah..nampakla die ni penyabar orgnye..taktik die menarik pembeli..1 je=SENYUM...:)
aku sian..sbb aku rae lagi best kalau pakcik ni gi tido kat umah..melayan cucu die..eheh..tapi aku tanak la pk bukan2.mungkin die jenis org yg mmg tokleh duduk diam..anak cucu die jauh..rajin die menjual sayur ..
banyak jugakla mende yg aku perati..yg aku dapat belajar kat cameron..yg aku citer ni salah satu jek :)..

blog aku ni dah baper kali tah bertukar rupe tah utk minggu ni..tappe..nnti bile betul2 ade mase aku design je sendrik..takyah pakai skin yg org lain wat :D..tapi nntila bile bebetul ade mase..

okeh la ppl..sile la berenjoy minggu honeymoon utk sem1 2004/2005 :D

well..a big smile from me..

tak update lg pasal orientation week eh? banyak nak update pasal seminggu tuh..tapi nanti2 la ek..not in the mood lagi..alah..rindunye kat bebudak ex oc..

esok start skolah balik..klas btq..gi la kot..alang2 dah masuk gi src room pagi esok..teruskan je la gi klas kol 2-4..insaf la sikit nad oii..ehehe

ala..dah ilang idea la nak tulis..
takpela..meh share lirik lagu besh..
lagu ni miza yg kenalkan..lagu lame..tapi besh..so..enjoy!!

I Will Be Your Friend Lyrics


When every moment gets too hard
The end of the road can feel so far
No matter how much time we'll part
I'm always near you
I'll be the shelter in your rain
Help you find your smile again
I'll make you laugh if you have a broken heart
Wherever you are

[Chorus:]
Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend

[Verse 2:]
So many people come and go
Nothing can change the you I know
You'll never be just a face in the crowd
And time will show
Through the seasons and the years
I will always hold you dear
Never you fear

Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend

[Bridge:]
I'll be around when every candle burns down low
And I want you to know...

Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend

______________________________________DOA UNTUK KEKASIH ______________________________________Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku. Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan. Dia milikku tercipta untukku. Dekatkan hatinya dengan hatiku. Tetapkanlah kemesraan antara kami. Agar kebahagiaan ini kekal abadi. Dan Tuhanku. Seiringkanlah hati kami. Mengharungi hidup yang luas ini. Ketepian yang sejahtera. Tetapi Tuhanku yang Maha Esa. Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan. Dia bukan milikku. Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku. Luput dari ingatanku. Dan peliharalah aku daripada kecewa. Satu Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti. Berikanlah aku kekuatan. Meluntur bayangannya ke dada langit. Hilang bersama gelap malam. Agar aku bisa berbahagia. Walau tanpa dirinya. Dan Tuhanku yang Maha Pengasih. Gantilah yang telah hilang. Tumbuhkanlah yang telah patah. Meskipun tidak sama dengan dirinya. Biar sekuat manapun aku menyintainya. Aku pohon agar Tuhanku. Melenyapkan perasaan ini. Sekiranya dia. Bukan ditakdirkan untukku... Tetapi Tuhanku. Ku pohon agar takdirMu. Perkuatkan kasihku padanya. Selagi tidak melebihi kasihku padaMu. Ya Allah Perkenankanlah doa hambamu ini Amin...________________________________________

thanx chee poon!! hihi..love it!!

SRC

pang of sadness

srcians..i love n miss you guys a lot!!
a couple of minutes ago i went to the src room to collect my cds from the top drawer beside the pc..and also hoping to see any if not all of the src's there..

well..the room is locked and veeery messy..i can only see the room from the outside imagining our times inside there. Meetings..birthday celebrations..interviews..little hideout place..sharing laughter,sadness..wow..guess theres a lot of memories ya? i manage to take a peek at the white board..hoping to see joe's handwriting calling for a meeting..but of course..none meetings..no more with the presence of all of us..

there are several of us who are graduating..seriously..i'll really miss u guys..and for those who arent..i'll still be missing all of u as a council..

Jo: jobaly@jolaby@jo-ba ehehe..thanx jo..thank you very mush for inviting and welcoming me as one of the council members..thank you soo much for all ur support..really had fun and lots were learned...luv ya so much..thank you!

joanne: joanne!! ur such a good friend..thank you so much..(remember the times when i cried and u were there?) ehehe..thank you so much!!

mc,nicholas: luv u guys a lot too!! eheh..wont forget mc..thanx n sorry 4 everything and same goes to dear nicholas..

cathy,abg faisal,duncan: well..the swad team..ehehe..despite tons of stress we carried, but we still manage to have fun rite?..there was a point of time when i thought that i dont want to carry on as being one of the council members..but the swad team makes me push those toughts away..i love u guys!!

chan,kokhol,nicky,ravin,feng,abg izar: thank you so much for being my friends..i learned a lot from u guys (both good and bad things eheh)..hope we still stay as friends even when we are no more a council..

shom,siva: just got closer to both of u in the mid 2nd trimester..find it easy to talk to shom..specially 'girls talk' rite shom? hihi..and siva..really like working with u as food ppl during oc binding camp..hehe (even if u say i'm pemalas..i still like working wif u)

lala,pojie: knew each other even before becoming an src...shared lots of things together ya? thank you sooooooo much..muahs muahs!!

ramatu: even though we had several communication breakdowns thingy..ehehe..but i still learnt a lot and respect u soo much!! i still have a lot more to learn..specially from u..

faris: had crisis and all..but thanx a lot for being my friend..

huhu..thats about all of the council members..whatever ppl says bout us..i dont care..we know what we did..and we're just happily waiting for the next council to form and to do better than what we did..

the best part is..we manage to be a family..each one of know that each and everyone of us is there no matter what..i love u guys..and hope we'll stay be friends until forever..

cayang budak2 src 2003/2004!! muahs!! hihi